Now that it is getting too much on to me, here I am set to dump!

1) Why do they have Qualifiers?

This question arises of genuine passion for doing good research and concern for sincere utilization of time. I am here to ask the administration, as to how many time I need to prove myself. Is the whole life going to get wasted in taking tests? or do you want to let me do good research?

I understand completely the idea of qualifier being there to filter out the candidates who are not worth a PhD. I am not scared of taking the tests. {For the ignorant readers, a qualifier in Physics is considered the most difficult because one has to take an in class 3 hour examination for every single branch of physics. There is no prescribed syllabi. Anything from any corner of the world can be on the paper}. I have got above 95% in every single physics course offered to the grad students. Astonishingly, people would still want to waste my time forcing me to take the 3 hr test once more. What shows you the endurance? A test match or a T20?

I am here ready to prep for the qualifiers! But gimme time!

2) Why do advisors not understand the value of time?

It is but human to do this. I have been working on ZnO nanowires for long now. A set of 5-6 profs are looking at the problem. It involves man hours of world's best groups working on the problem and yet the whole group does not converge. I can not take charge because I am speaking to highly accomplished profs in the field. I can not say a word. But thats how life goes.

More over, they want me to do more and more experiments and the department wants me to study more and more for the qualifiers. I am caught in a quagmire. I do not know how to balance. Even if I forget that I have a personal life 24 hrs is not enough for what I am doing!! I hope I will survive and win this test.

And the words of a boxer keep the flame going in me...

Champions aren't made in gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them: A desire, a dream, a vision. They have to have last-minute stamina, they have to be a little faster, they have to have the skill and the will. But the will must be stronger than the skill

What's so special about these so called 'Gods'? Are they hailed to stardom, simply, with no strong reasons? Nope. It is because they finish the job with such perfection that you would be awing at the acts they deliver in reality. The way how FedEx returns Roddick or Nadal at times or how the little master upper cuts the fastest bowlers or drives them (crazy) through covers, teasing the fielders until they reach for the ropes or how the megastar perfects himself in a Gang leader's role or a young boy inspired by Sri Sri is what makes them 'God'. Now I am speaking about one such person who perfectly fits into the above picture: Sirivennela. His lyrics describing the world in Samved or his words, with generous sprinkling of English and Hindi, talking of modern desi youth make him a 'God'. I was listening to 'Josh' songs...sirivennela did an amazing job!!! He is God!!

Okie....here you go I have become Baron von Münchausen so here is my back of handkerchief calculation...

if we build a gymnasium, where, people work out in such a way that the mechanical work they put in can be converted into other types like electricity for example !

if every man can burn 1000 calories and 1000 people work out in a day then

that is equal to ~4000*1000 Joules= 1 KWH!!!

one KWH is not whole lot...but still that is the energy wasted....!!

(A strong effect of Thermodynamics in the morning for quals and gymming in the evening!!)

A small open challenge to my fella desi engineers at Clemson...if you feel ur summers are boring...design a gym that can effectively use this power to cool it self!! and save some money!

You gottala chittalu battilu kottina ee matti mastakala mattalaku ok challenge

Chaala rojula taruvata ne naaku cheppukunna aasu kavita...

This was my extempore composition when I looked at the sun set while playing volley ball today evening at Clemson

రోజు జగతికి వెలుగిచ్చి, మెల్కొలిపే అభ్యాసపు ఆయాసం వస్తేను దరి
తనకిక అలుపొచ్చి, వీడ్కోలనే సన్యాసపు కాషాయం పూస్తాడు రవి.

ఆరోగ్యం అన్నాక శాంతిచ్చే సాయం సాయం కావాలి
వైరాగ్యం నాకేల? కాంతిచ్చే సౌభాగ్యం నాదేగ! ఉదయించాలి

అంటాడు రవి

Meaning...

When Sun gets tired of the daily routine of waking up people and 'throwing' light on earth.
he retires and renunciates (sanyasa) and paints the sky symbolically with saffron.

Even Sun is worried about his health so he takes the help of evenings for resting.
but then he realizes while going to bed that he alone has this unique opportunity to give light and hence rises the next day!!!

Hope it was not too nerdy!!

A lot of things have gone by in the past one week. I am still prepping to prep! My Qualifiers prep is going really bad!! I am hating qualifiers for simply one reason, How many times do I need to prove to my department that I am qualified enough to do a PhD? 13 courses in physics and A on each and every one of them. I still need to take qualifiers because I have to abide by the rules. I am not speaking of any supremacy here. I am here making a point that the dept. is simply making some of the students waste their time asking them to prove every now and then. It is like asking you to win another one after you won 4 Ashes continuously!!!

I am sitting at home waiting to prep. I did not want to put a brake on my research and switch gears to qualifiers. It is little frustrating! But thats life after all! You gotto keep proving. Even Ganguly, Dravid had to do that! (This scenario is different tho') I need to plan on doing experiments too!! I guess I need to kick start qualifier prep from tomm... and accelerate like nythg.


And please do not look at me until I finish my prepping. I am putting on hell lot of weight and bloating up. I need to hit the gym back and thin down! I promise, I will b back by sept. end!!

Apart from that, I was being stupid (as usual) about things, making my own conclusions, and creating my own fears. I am happy that I realized what I was doing and got rid of it.

I am loving life and of late biryani and pizza from RJC!! Waiting to watch Harry Potter and Magadheera....

and thats the favorite track of mine playing on KKL's eternity.....Deham Idi ...Fanaa

I'm feeling sleepy and will study tomm!!! gud nite...

P.S: It seems, my poems have become dissection samples, on VG stupid discussion tables~!~!
To those Green Villagers....wait a minute and think! You are no more kids...time to behave. And please remember that you represent a country, a community and then yourself. So speak and act sensibly. Have individuality and do not be sheep!

Do we study just to earn a job? In fact, after coming to the US, I met many desi students who understand the ultimate aim of education as a job! They do not want to understand and do something new. They would prefer to walk a laid down path, that others have been following, with out even questioning. We, as a world, are only doing research and fundamental science for money and funding! Money, something created by us, is stopping us from understanding the world around us completely. We make theories based on simple arguments, We are scared to shed away our notions and accept new knowledge. But will we really develop our understanding just by simply claiming we are modern thinkers!

Are we looking at a part of the painting and deeming it to be the complete picture? Is our science right? Is Quantum mechanics questionable? Well...the questions go on and on!! We need answers. We need students, who study not for a job, but for knowledge.




Meaning,

By valuing knowledge's worth as minted money, we, in our intimidated lives, crucified and arrested the inquiry in us.

Are all these theories true? They are but castles made of playing cards. Who knows when they may fall!
Oh! the world in chaos! do not be in haste. Wait a minute and search for the real truth.

His anonymous signatures are but the binding chains of our ignorance.

Can you claim your thoughts to be modern by simply stating that we have developed from the stone age to comp. age?
This world will march forward, only if we think together!

Does end of education mean sound of rupees (dollars) rumbling down?
then end of this life will be but a stinking, shameless dead body!

P.S: This is one of the few poems where I sounded really harsh and strong! But I sincerely feel this attitude should change!

Is this being Human?
Is this the weakness of human mind?
Is this having faith?
Is this the serenity?

Keep your respect. Keep up yourself. Live up, not to the expectations of others, but at least to your own! A life with out basic human values is useless.....I am really happy that I was taught what these are! People, it is not late...let us all learn and live up!!! Make life simple and lovable!

I was really disappointed to hear this. Even well educated Indians think the stock exchange value of dollar represents the Indian economy. I may not be the perfectly right person to explain. But Indian Economy is something that is completely different. There are many available links online. Do read about thy country for a while and know basic stuff like what are our policies. I am not bothered about what has been happening until now with the prev. gen. But let us, the neo 'Ubuntu' generation be wise and knowledgeable.