Me Myself and My Life

Bramha's tower

2010-01-04T21:25:00.000-08:00

According to the tale of the Tower of Brahma, in the Indian city of Benares, beneath a dome that marked the center of the world, is to be found a brass plate in which are set three diamond needles, "each a cubit high and as thick as the body of a bee." Brahma placed 64 disks of pure gold on one of these needles at the time of Creation. Each disk is a different size, and each is placed so that it rests on top of another disk of greater size, with the largest resting on the brass plate at the bottom and the smallest at the top. Within the temple are priests whose job it is to transfer all the gold disks from their original needle to one of the others, without ever moving more than one disk at a time. No priest can ever place any disk on top of a smaller one, or anywhere else except on one of the needles. When the task is done, and all 64 disks have been successfully transferred to another needle, "tower, temple, and Brahmins alike will crumble into dust, and with a thunder-clap the world will vanish."

I solved the problem myself....this is a simple progressing. The answer is in the following pic...I solved for number of steps. So even if you take a second for each step it will take 584 billion years!! Whoa!

Ardham?

2009-12-29T21:01:00.000-08:00

I wish to put my feelings in words. Alas! I am unable to write.
I wish to sing my thoughts aloud. But I fall short of rhythm.
I wish to paint my ideas on the canvas. But I am unaware of technique of such art.

So,

I have no words to write.
I have no tune to hum.
I have no ability to paint.

If this paper can fathom the purpose of its life then can my life not understand its own purpose?

I do not know the meaning of this moment of my life. Neither do I know the purpose of the moment before this one nor the moment after this.

If you can understand the meaning of life, only when time ticks then does time tick only to let us know the meaning of life?

If it takes one whole life time to digest the meaning of life then, is the purpose of life understanding its own purpose?

As soon as I get an answer for one question, immediately another question pops out of such an answer.

I must figure out the purpose this puzzle of life. There may be many hindrances, many pieces to be put together. But I have to work, think and digest the meaning of it.

I may not have words to write.
I may not have tune to hum.
I may not have the ability to paint. But
I have the desire to think...
to think till I understand!

2009

2009-12-27T08:59:00.000-08:00

4 more days and we will be into a new year!...2010! According to the much hyped Mayan calendar we will then have just 2 more years!

Oh! yeah...this is a marker, where we can stop look back and introspect! Here is my account!

January:

I began this year with a lot of resolutions. These were very crucial to my future and life. I am happy that I made the difference. It is all because of His grace! My guitar classes were a new thing. Being the only doctoral student in a music major class make you feel a bit awkward. I could not keep up with the class.

February:

Hmm...Started the search for a new apartment. Leases generally end in Feb.
Of course there were frustrations due to my never ending ZnO work! My adviser probably never realized by then that I could do much much more. I had to keep myself up with the ever poking lab mate of mine. I hated it but you see, one has to live with such ppl. Taking credit for all my work, he made me look like a stupid. But thats ok! We are what we are !

March:

Excited with the APS conference. I went all the way to Pittsburgh, PA to present my research on ZnO. Had it not been for my adviser's time and effort, this talk would have been impossible. I had to spend hell lotta time running around, making samples for SQUID and the data churned out in a week was a whole lot. Gave a good talk at the end. It was infact so good that a Brazilian theorist walked up to me and asked for collaboration! Whoa! and of course how can i forget the call for coffee?

All my lab mate was surprised because many iitians met me at the conference and he was baffled to know what actually IIT is...

April:

I guess we moved back to our labs. I was able to keep all my promises. I had to now worry about the qualifiers that were ahead. Physics PhD qualifiers isn't an easy job.I feel so bad at times that ppl weigh all qualifiers equally. There is a hell lot of difference between physics and others. It's Ok. We, physicists know what it is! The confidence in you after clearing the qualifiers is simply ineffable.

May:

Moved into new apartment. Much more near to the school. It was all good except for the frocking Myrtle beach trip. I met one of the weirdest characters in my life. Life keeps showing you such ppl every once in a while. Chalta hai!

I was yet to start my qualifier prep. I was doing Dr. SS's experiments. After all, thats how I was funded for the summer!

June:

Got a good neighbor and started munching upon telugu delicacies she cooked. It was all going great again. I was back in my elements. At this point I knew I might put on some weight. But who cares? Isn't it boring to have the same appearance every day? I feel bored to see same image in the mirror everyday. You gotta keep changing styles and physique to feel the gift God has given you. It is not about six packs or being fat...it is about feeling good and enjoying his Gift!

July:

US independence day was when I started serious prep for Quals. That left me with 75 days. 15 days into prep, I was called back to the lab to do mor expts.

Oka Badugu raitu vyadha

2009-12-20T19:08:00.000-08:00

Why Telangana?

2009-12-07T07:38:00.000-08:00

Here is an open letter to PM Manmohan Singh, explaining the need of Telangana...So here are my opinions on it. Please do bear in mind the fact that I was born and brought up in Telangana!

Dear Sir,

We take this opportunity to impress upon you the need and urgency of your action in the form of working toward a separate Telangana State. As you quoted Victor Hugo over a decade ago, “No army can withstand the strength of an idea whose time has come” and the Telangana people’s aspiration is one such.

Telangana has been subjected to oppression and neglect for over five hundred fifty years. First five hundred years, Muslim Kings made the decisions for Telangana, and the last 47 years, Andhras are making decisions for Telangana. The Telangana people were free for only four years (1952 – 1956) to make their own decisions. Freedom to determine one’s own destiny, as you know is the highest of the rewards for a true democracy.

1) What do you mean by 'not allowed' to make their own decisions? Are you going to say, just because you are part of India, you were not allowed to make own decisions but had to follow the country's constitution and you will need to be declared a republic? We all live in a community. I think every one of us has the same freedom to choose the life we want. Of course we need to work hard for it at times. In a country like India, where there are few facilities but high population, competition is to be expected

Four and a half decades have passed since the State of Andhra Pradesh was formed. As you are aware, the merger of Telangana with the former Andhra State became possible only because a set of solemn promises were made and constitutional guarantees were given to protect against the possible neglect and exploitation of Telangana. These promises were made not just once, but numerous times and all were broken.

Consequently, the exploitation of the region and its people is continued. The people of the region are not only deprived of their legitimate share in the development but are also marginalized in the political process. They have been humiliated on the cultural and linguistic fronts and are virtually reduced to the status of second-class citizens in their own homeland. A prolonged neglect of the region has provided a fertile ground for the emergence and spread of Naxalite violence and also unending farmer suicides.

2)It is really wrong to say that Telangana culture is humiliated. Pawan Kalyan has portrayed the langugae very well in all of his movies. In fact even Jandhyala showed it really well. All the telugu movies portray telangana as a stylish dialect. Telangana is identified by its slang. I think Naxalite violence is helpful for ppl. It is something that comes into picture to make the govt. work well.

The development scenario of Telangana is very depressing. There is not even a single sector in which this region has not been ignored. We would, however, like to bring to your notice only a few areas to underscore the gravity of the situation.

EDUCATION

The literacy rate in Telangana is 37% as against 46% in Coastal Andhra, 45% in Rayalaseema and 72% in the Capital City.

3) These are simple stats! 37% to 45%!! What is the big deal? They are almost the same. You guys do not see that the whole of south India has a single IIT. NIT is in Warangal, telangana. If you are not willing to go to school, we can not help it.

You have written the letter to PM in good English. I am replying in English. So here is a clear example of how well educated Telangana is. Just look at ho many telangana students fare well in IIT-JEE...it is much more than any one else?

You will be a literate only if you go to school!

Enrollment of students at the school level in Telangana is 30% instead of 40%, based on the size of population. Over 75% of the expenditure on government and government-aided colleges is incurred in the other two regions.
Out of 21 Universities and University level Institutions funded either by the State or the Central Government, 3 are located in Coastal Andhra, 7 in Rayalaseema, 10 in the Capital city and just one in the entire Telangana region.

IRRIGATION

69% percent of catchments area of river Krishna and 79% percent of catchments area of river Godavari are in the Telangana, and Telangana region gets less than 15% of the river waters.
The Coastal Andhra has usurped 80% of assured waters of Krishna allocated to the State by the Bachawat Tribunal. 90% of surplus waters, yet to be allocated, are reserved for the Rayalaseema, denying the Telangana its rightful share.
The Godavari waters have already been harnessed to irrigate more than 12 lakh acres in Coastal Andhra while the corresponding figure for Telangana is 4 lakh acres. The proposed Polavaram Project on Godavari is to serve the Coastal Andhra region is planned to be six times larger than the proposed Ichampalli Project to serve the backward Telangana region.
The net area under tank irrigation in the Telangana region had declined by 76% between 1956 and 1998. The Telangana farmers mostly depend on well irrigation. The farmers of Coastal Andhra get cheap canal water subsidized by the State, while the Telangana farmers are forced to pay higher electric pump bills.

AGRICULTURE

The net cultivated area in the Telangana region has decreased by 22% during the period 1956 and 1998, while it has increased by 4.25% in Coastal Andhra region.
40% of the cultivated area in the State is in the Telangana region, and the institutional credit available to the Telangana farmers is far less. They get 18%, 23% and 28% of the total credit provided by the District Cooperative Central Banks (short-term), the A.P. Cooperative Central Bank (long-term) and the Scheduled Commercial Banks.

Inadequate Institutional credit is forcing the Telangana farmers to fall into the debt trap laid by the private moneylenders, leading to an unprecedented number of suicides during the last five years.

INDUSTRIES

No major industry worth its name has been setup in any of the districts of the Telangana

This is ridiculous!
1) AP steels
2) Navabharat ferro alloys limited
3) Kothagudem thermal power plant
4) Singareni coal collieries (Kothagudem, Manuguru, Yellandu, Godavari Khani, Ramagundam)
5) Ramagundam power plant.
6) Silk Industry
7) Tourism in Bhadrachalam and Parnashala

region as compared to the establishment of several industries in Visakapatnam, Vijayawada, Kakinada, Nellore, Tirupati, and Cuddapah.

Quite a few major industries established in the Telangana region during the rule of Nizams are being closed one after the other by the successive governments. Important among the closed industries are Azamjahi Mills (Warangal), Sir Silk Factory (Sirpur), Antargaon Spinning Mills (Adilabad), DBR Mills, and Allwyn Factory. Further the famous Nizam Sugar Factory (Nizamabad) is on the verge of closure.
EMPLOYEMENT

There are about 15 lakh jobs in the government and government-funded offices and establishments. Based on the size of population, 40% of these jobs, i.e. 6 lakhs, should have been filled in by the Telangana job seekers. But the total number of jobs now occupied by them is less than 2 lakhs.
The State Government issued orders as back as in the year 1984 to remove all the non-locals appointed and to appoint only Telangana locals against the vacancies created. Besides not implementing these orders, further recruitment of non-locals in the Telangana region is going on.
FINANCES

The contribution of Telangana region to the State’s Exchequer has all along been around 43%. But the expenditure incurred on the development of this region has never been more than 25%.
The lower per capita income of the Telangana region enabled the State Government to get higher allocation of funds from the successive Finance Commissions. But the benefit of such higher allocation of funds never materialized for the Telangana region.
More than 80% of loans taken from the World Bank and other International and National agencies are being spent for the development of Coastal Andhra and Rayalaseema. But the burden of repayment of these loans and interest on them is being borne by the people of Telangana to the extent of 40 to 43%.
A cumulative effect of these and similar factors, over the years, has been the diversion of thousands of crores of rupees meant for the development of Telangana region, for the development of other regions.
The situation in other sectors is equally, if not more, alarming. The Drinking water is a major issue for the Telangana region. The people mostly depend on bore-wells for their drinking water and are inflicted with fluorosis. The fluorides in the drinking water cause permanent disfigurement, brain damage and there is no cure for it.

Telangana is rich with resources. Telangana people are asking: Use Telangana resources for the development of Telangana region for the betterment of Telangana people. We hope that the national government under your stewardship is aware of these facts.

Formation of Telangana State is as explained earlier is the aspiration of the natives.

The selfish political motives are clearly seen in why you need separate state.
I think PM should not allow it. I love to call my state Andhra pradesh! I do not want a telangana.

That aside, the principles governing smaller states to bring government closer to people would build up the economy and empower people in the process. Telangana people opposed the formation of Andhra Pradesh state in 1956, they overwhelmingly voted for a separate Telangana state in 1969. In 2004 elections, the people of Andhra Pradesh accepted the concept of two states, voted overwhelmingly for TRS-Congress alliance, and rejected the TDP appeal for united Andhra Pradesh.

I congratulates you for taking the step toward initiating a dialogue through President’s address to the Parliament and further clarifying it in your first Press conference the future Telangana state. Telangana people have committed to achieve their statehood through non-violence. The conditions are ripe and there is consensus on ground with out any unnecessary hate or dislike toward each other. The time for Telangana has come and please understands that I will continue to work towards the betterment of the region.

Thanking you Sir.
Sincerely yours,

Nijam uniki kosam tanikhi!

2009-12-04T12:21:00.001-08:00

The Identity Crisis (unedited and incomplete)

2009-12-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

The Identity Crisis

The need to understand and protect one’s identity, in an era of global networking, is highly important. Loss of identity can mean that one is no more one’s actual self or at least one can not be associated with the values, morals, thoughts and ideas one used to stand for. An identity crisis is when an individual or a group loses a sense of personal sameness and historical continuity. The million dollar question is, ‘Is the Indian youth under identity crisis?’

To remember the Indian culture and carry with us its values is not chauvinism by any means. Chauvinism would be to believe blindly in the wrongly interpreted ideas. The spatial extent in here will not let me dwell more upon the need of understanding and following one’s culture. Our religions, cultures, and customs are the values, principles we believe in. The faith in them should spring from assimilating their salient features but not originate simply by birth or by force. One should not identify one’s self to be a follower of a certain religion only because one was born in a family of its followers. As a grown up adult one should be mature enough to digest the principles of various faiths and then choose to follow one. But often we see the reverse process occur. One starts to follow a faith as a child and then as an adult one begins to comprehend it. Ultimately, comprehension is most important but not its space time coordinates.

Culture or Samskriti means refinement, adding more values that let us live a peaceful social life. Bharateeya Samskriti is often mistaken to be the philosophy of Hinduism. Politics and misinterpretations have always played their role, in degenerating the picture of Bharateeya Samskriti, to perfection. It does not surprise me that world, also including many ignorant Indians, still thinks that Hinduism follows untouchability. Indian culture has been made to look so vast and complex to the west that they always failed to understand it. How can giants like Mark Twain, Beverly Nicholas, and Sir Charles Eliot fail to comprehend Hinduism when a dhobi can digest its nature and follow it? The answer is it was made complex by its followers: the politicians who wished to rule, the youth who failed to understand it, the priests who twisted facts for personal benefit and many more. Bharateeya Samskriti is neither intangible nor elusive. It was simply made so. My duty here is to explain and show in simple terms what we stand for and to awaken my (br) others from their deep slumber.

MORE to come...

Asamtrupti

2009-11-18T17:26:00.001-08:00

అడుగు అడుగునా అడుగుతున్నా
మది మడుగు అడుగునా ఉన్న మగువని నువ్వు ఎవ్వరని?

నా ప్రశ్న రాగం ఏదైనా తన జవాబు గీతం ఒకటే!
తన మౌనం ఎంతైనా, అది కొనడం నా ధ్యేయం

తను తనువు మరిచి ఆలపించెను,
ఆర్ద్ర నయనాలతో ఆర్తనాదం !

" నిశ్శబ్దం నేర్చుకో,
పట్టని ఈ జగం తో నిత్యం మాట్లాడడం లో ఏంటి అర్ధం?

వినమ్రత నీలో చేర్చుకో,
వినని ఈ జనం తో సత్యం కై పోట్లాడి వ్యర్ధం?

భక్తి ముసుగు కప్పుకో ,
భగవంతుడంటే భయమనుకునే వీళ్ళతో బతకాలి

వినయం కొంచెం ఉంచుకో,
నీ పొగరుని గర్వం అనుకునే ఈ జనం తో ఉండాలి

అబద్దం అరకిలో కొనుక్కో,
నిజం చెబితే నిలదీసే నికృష్టులతో నడవాలి

మోసం మూరెడు బేరమాడి తీసుకో,
నువ్వు మంచి తో సాయం చేస్తే నీ సంచి నే మాయం చేసే మనుషులతో మెలగాలి...

కుళ్ళు కళ్ళలో ఉంచుకో ,
లేకుంటే పక్కోడు పైకొస్తే చూసి ఏడ్చే ఈ ప్రజలు నిన్ను వెలి వేస్తారు

దురాశలు దాచుకో,
దూరపు కొండల నునుపు కై దేవులాడే ఈ దరిద్రులతో ఉండాలి "

తన పాట తెలిపింది నాకు
ఆ పాడే మగువ పేరు .....అసంతృప్తి!

Sachin...Sachin...

2009-11-15T06:45:00.001-08:00

'Sachin' is how I wish to address him.Because the sound 'Sachin' carries with it the euphony of all those perfectly executed straight drives, elegant square cuts, cute paddle sweeps or cunning leg spin. Twenty years and not out still! It is not something new to Him. Indian cricters hail him and only hail him...they can not go an get 4 more runs to acknowledge His valiant 175! They can not win a final to greet his 98 vs Pak or 5/32 against Aus. He fights and fights! I get so disappointed when people term Sachin as a run machine or an elegant batsmen or often compare Him to Taj. Because He is a phenomenon. A simple question to prove my point...how many of you have ever heard his name in conjunction with a scandal? In a country where the term 'celebrity' is often mistaken to be 'a person involved in scams, scandals or similar kind of controversies', he is one of the very few who lives with no spot on him.

He is not a run getter but he is an inspiration. An inspiration not only to cricketers but to many others. He has been batting sincerely enough to inspire the author to be a good physicist. He has been batting innovative enough to inspire design engineers. He has been batting dedicated enough to make a point to the youth of the country. He started out as a cricketer but now he has out grown his profession...He is a 'God'. This God may not be almighty you would like to think of with all the power to do what he wished...but this God can instill in your kids sincerity, dedication, commitment, and humility above all. He speaks through his bat. His rare spoken words can tell you volumes about his notion of celebrity.

Sachin, you have inspired me as much as your stats. I learnt from your elegant drives to understand the technique well instead of simply blasting it blindly for a six. Your cut shots taught me to be smart enough to get around the away to find a simpler solution. Your paddle sweep could help me solve Schrodinger equation with enough innovation. You have showed me how to think laterally. You helped me find gaps when I was stuck in Quantum Mechanics. Your defense told me way to master Electrodynamics. I passed qualifiers for you. Your leg spin was the perfect way to show some one to be cunning enough to succeed in things not of your expertise!

You are my best Physics teacher ever...

To you, Sachin...I dedicate this post!

Windows 7 and Diwali

2009-10-28T15:03:00.000-07:00

Windows 7 at last...it feels good to work on windows 7. Though Mac might say a lot of things, I am really liking 7. It boots way faster than vista and works much better. I am in love with the snap, snip and the magnify apps... they r thgs I always needed.

I should also appreciate CISA for a good cultural portrayal of India in diwali celeb, especially the koochipudi and bharatanatyam dances and the paki song. Keerthi as was usual at his best and the folk music got good appreciation from the audience...Though the cheap and at times unfathomable humor of the hosts was a negative, a good job by the other participants made the show look good..

Motivation....

2009-01-19T16:45:00.000-08:00

There you go, if you are falling short of some inspiration!!!!

Okie, people; As usual for those who can not understand telugu, here is the literal (truly) word to word translation!!!

If your eyes (vision) are filled with dreams (to be achieved),where is the place for tears?

If your body is completely occupied by the passion to do the same, where is the thought of tiredness?

Will the breeze stop blowing, deeming it went all around the Earth a hundred thousand times?

Will fire stop burning things, taking time off to relax; as it had been on work ever since the beginning?

Will time stop ticking, simply because it had been running all the time in all the wall clocks and watches in world?

If you can not bear the sun glaring on your sword, how will you be able to face the scorching heat in the battle field??

If your feet move briskly towards the heavens of perfection, how will you reach if you forget the path?

If victory is desired, then do you have enough energy to get up, dust yourself and walk every time you fall?

If you wish to let your breath take rest for a while,then are you ready to compromise with defeat of death?

Self confidence is never on sale; It is to be developed and nourished.
If you wish to win and build your dream land around you, then first you need to wake up from the deep slumber!!!!

Be as simple as possible (not simpler)

2009-06-19T13:22:00.000-07:00

I may be trying to support my emotions through this post. I know I have no right comment some xyz. But I am here to say that it is we who differentiate. People will always love to hear compliments but not comments. It does not matter who it is but I will want to learn my faults before I feel happy about my capabilities and skills. I hate to comment some one because I hate to discuss ppl. All of us are here on this holy earth for a really short while. To me all that I want to know is why I am sent here and what is the purpose of the being. I do not want to waste my life away in trying to earn bread and butter. Well it is important but it is only a small part. I might be really loud abt what I think or what is going on in my mind. I apologize if my opinions are hurting but that is what is in my heart. It is we who decide what is bad and what is not. When everything in this world is attached with such an individual perception how can you decide what is right and what is not?

It is hard for me to digest how one can leave Indian citizenship to be some one else. If people settle down in 'greener' pastures because it is clean, secure and wealthy then who is going to clean up their home country? Going to 'greener' pasture in search of knowledge or learning is not being anti-patriotic. But leaving your home land to serve others is! Motherland is no different from our own mother. I give the same respect and love to India as I give to my mom. I belong to this young generation of the nation that believes in 'neo-patriotism'.

Before every morsel of food goes down our throats, let us remember that there are many brothers and sisters of us hungry in the country. What they need is not one day's food but the same life that you have. What makes you and me have all these comforts? Not being born in a well educated or a good family is not those kid's fault. They have every right to learn, earn and live the same life as we do. And not to forget we have all the responsibilty to equilibrate the world. If the definition of God is such that he makes people suffer then to me there is no God. If God exists let him make all of us equal not in the perspective that we are born and we die. Let him give us all the same to start with. If some one is being punished for previous karma then I do not need such a God. Oh! Almighty, give us all the same food, same clothes and same intellect. My brothers and sisters are no different from me. And do remember that we are but your children.

The crux of the thing is I want to make myself clear. I believe in equilibration of the world. I can not support people who can live with out bothering about the basic needs of other people. I will give my everything to work for my motherland and the world in Tagore's sense.

What it means:

One should not mistake the wave's perseverance to rise every time it falls to be it's arrogance

One should not mistake power of the sun's effulgent rays (described as the his horse's neigh) which can dispel the darkness to be his ruthlessness

One should not think that flowers are proud of the divine aroma they spread. They are simply paying back mother Earth and showing their gratitude!

Fly as high as you can; Never forget that Earth has been bearing you until you took off!

Sing like a Veena; Remember that you are dumb unless some one plucks the strings!

Your skills get you respect but that is simply an indication of other's appreciation
If you are humble, you will be revered or else your folly will make you sick

Crux: Just be simple and plain. Be open. What ever you have/get is just His grace. You are merely an instrument!

Where are we heading?

2009-07-16T05:42:00.000-07:00

Do we study just to earn a job? In fact, after coming to the US, I met many desi students who understand the ultimate aim of education as a job! They do not want to understand and do something new. They would prefer to walk a laid down path, that others have been following, with out even questioning. We, as a world, are only doing research and fundamental science for money and funding! Money, something created by us, is stopping us from understanding the world around us completely. We make theories based on simple arguments, We are scared to shed away our notions and accept new knowledge. But will we really develop our understanding just by simply claiming we are modern thinkers!

Are we looking at a part of the painting and deeming it to be the complete picture? Is our science right? Is Quantum mechanics questionable? Well...the questions go on and on!! We need answers. We need students, who study not for a job, but for knowledge.

Meaning,

By valuing knowledge's worth as minted money, we, in our intimidated lives, crucified and arrested the inquiry in us.

Are all these theories true? They are but castles made of playing cards. Who knows when they may fall!
Oh! the world in chaos! do not be in haste. Wait a minute and search for the real truth.

His anonymous signatures are but the binding chains of our ignorance.

Can you claim your thoughts to be modern by simply stating that we have developed from the stone age to comp. age?
This world will march forward, only if we think together!

Does end of education mean sound of rupees (dollars) rumbling down?
then end of this life will be but a stinking, shameless dead body!

P.S: This is one of the few poems where I sounded really harsh and strong! But I sincerely feel this attitude should change!

Aasu Kavita...

2009-07-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

Chaala rojula taruvata ne naaku cheppukunna aasu kavita...

This was my extempore composition when I looked at the sun set while playing volley ball today evening at Clemson

రోజు జగతికి వెలుగిచ్చి, మెల్కొలిపే అభ్యాసపు ఆయాసం వస్తేను దరి
తనకిక అలుపొచ్చి, వీడ్కోలనే సన్యాసపు కాషాయం పూస్తాడు రవి.

ఆరోగ్యం అన్నాక శాంతిచ్చే సాయం సాయం కావాలి
వైరాగ్యం నాకేల? కాంతిచ్చే సౌభాగ్యం నాదేగ! ఉదయించాలి

అంటాడు రవి

Meaning...

When Sun gets tired of the daily routine of waking up people and 'throwing' light on earth.
he retires and renunciates (sanyasa) and paints the sky symbolically with saffron.

Even Sun is worried about his health so he takes the help of evenings for resting.
but then he realizes while going to bed that he alone has this unique opportunity to give light and hence rises the next day!!!

Hope it was not too nerdy!!

Utpalam

2009-08-09T10:31:00.000-07:00

I never wrote much about friends...it is really a difficult job to do! Well, I really get no words when I start to write about my best friends..Friendship is something that amazes me! It is one of those ineffable things. I tried my hand at it several times but failed utterly to put it into words.

I have very few friends. And to me friendship means a lot more than need. I tried writing in chandassu this time. Here I go in Utpala maala

Means,

Even Bhartruhari (a great Sanskrit poet) will not do complete justice in describing Sun's glory. Then how can I describe the glory of a million suns but with the blessings of the compassionate God of friendship...

Let us march ahead...

2009-08-17T07:53:00.001-07:00

Oh! young Indians, who deem education to be mugging bookish stuff,
Oh! young Indians, who have buried their emotions beneath the claimed 'intellect' they possess,
Oh! young Indians, behaving in an inappropriate manner in a foreign land to deplete the little reputation our nation has abroad

Why do you run away in the name of M.S and PhD to greener pastures with out being bothered about the importance of your role in nation's progress?

Will you simply be an audience, to achieve the progress you dream of?

Should you cheat the nation? or bear it's burden?
Should you be an audience to the problems India faces? or come down and work?

You flock here like sheep, having no second thoughts, with high interest loans
Should we treat you like buffaloes and beat you up, in order to teach you how to work for the nation?

You have the intellect to achieve,
You have the efficiency to research,
but do you have the guilt that would pain thy heart, when you do not bother about the nation?
you have the degrees, but do you have the capability to teach and educate?

Neo India does not mean dead hopes!
If you are ready to invite change then you will be the celebration of life.

Let us start with introspection, let us take the first step
let us move cleaning away the dirt, let us march ahead and move others too!
let us be together in our march and let us proceed with progress!

Pogaru...

2009-09-16T11:53:00.000-07:00

Pogaru is neither arrogance nor over-confidence. It's a special word in Telugu that is most often mis-interpreted. Pogaru ante Ganga leader lo, rudraveena lo chiranjeevi attitude. Ye bowler ni ayina aadi, Century kotti India ni gelpista ani sachin ki unna pattudala. Sachin, knows he can play any bowler and hit a match winning knock. It does not mean that sachin under estimates the bowler or has over confidence. That is his pogaru!!

If confidence was a damsel, her elegance is pogaru...Dheema bhama sogasu...Pogaru

Tapana..

2009-10-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

I am not the reflection of your muscular body,
I am not with the insolent might that declares a war for no reason.
(I am not in physical strength)

I am not in, the incessantly estimating, human mind
I am not in ever prostrating slavery.
(I am not in mental strength)

I can not be found in the pride of human race, that deems to have understood the nature.

'Death' can not understand me...
(I am beyond life and death)

If you were to challenge then I am the arrogance that answers
I am the bitterness of the truth that you hate to hear

I, exist in those smiling waters despite their fall.
I am the incessantly running time.

I am the power that can conquer the world
I am the pen that can write a new era.

You can not buy me with money.
If you leave your egoistic self and cross the colonies of fear
then you wills see me in the streets of your heart.

I am your real self of which you are unaware
I am your passion to achieve!

The Mahatma?

2009-10-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

Yes, the question mark in the title is apt. Because, I have very recently heard a lot of controversies, as always, on Gandhi. After my own interaction with some Gandhi's and Gandhi followers around the world, I felt the need to critic Gandhi. Though I may not be a scholar like Balram Nanda, I guess I am qualified enough as an Indian to know more about the 'father of the nation'.

So I'm almost done with most of my research in the past 15 days on Gandhi. I will post a critical review here soon!

Kya bolu?

2009-10-03T15:46:00.000-07:00

So here I am...in the lab on a fine weekend..with innumerable ideas in my brains and a lot of time waiting for me...time to stand, play and achieve...

Firstly, I need to put off the fat I put on in the past 10 weeks. I need to kick myself and be ready for it. Yes, I know I will be.

I'm waiting for the fall break to go sumwhr and enjoy!

more to come...abhi mood nahi hain likhne ka!

Quantised...

2009-10-01T06:41:00.001-07:00

This is my effort to put forth the relationship between contemporary Physics and Indian scriptures in a new way. Inspired by Wachowski, Spielberg and Dan Brown...here I go.

I named the novel 'Quantized'...Click to read

Why I killed Gandhi?

2009-10-01T06:40:00.001-07:00

Born in a devotional Brahmin family, I instinctively came to revere Hindu religion, Hindu history and Hindu culture. I had, therefore, been intensely proud of Hinduism as a whole. As I grew up I developed a tendency to free thinking unfettered by any superstitious allegiance to any isms, political or religious. That is why I worked actively for the eradication of untouchability and the caste system based on birth alone. I openly joined anti-caste movements and maintained that all Hindus were of equal status as to rights, social and religious and should be considered high or low on merit alone and not through the accident of birth in a particular caste or profession. I used publicly to take part in organized anti-caste dinners in which thousands of Hindus, Brahmins, Kshatriyas, Vaisyas, Chamars and Bhangis participated. We broke the caste rules and dined in the company of each other.I have read the speeches and writings of Dadabhai Nairoji, Vivekanand, Gokhale, Tilak, along with the books of ancient and modern history of India and some prominent countries like England, France, America and’ Russia. Moreover I studied the tenets of Socialism and Marxism. But above all I studied very closely whatever Veer Savarkar and Gandhiji had written and spoken, as to my mind these two ideologies have contributed more to the moulding of the thought and action of the Indian people during the last thirty years or so, than any other single factor has done.

All this reading and thinking led me to believe it was my first duty to serve Hindudom and Hindus both as a patriot and as a world citizen. To secure the freedom and to safeguard the just interests of some thirty crores (300 million) of Hindus would automatically constitute the freedom and the well being of all India, one fifth of human race. This conviction led me naturally to devote myself to the Hindu Sanghtanist ideology and programme, which alone, I came to believe, could win and preserve the national independence of Hindustan, my Motherland, and enable her to render true service to humanity as well.

Since the year 1920, that is, after the demise of Lokamanya Tilak, Gandhiji’s influence in the Congress first increased and then became supreme. His activities for public awakening were phenomenal in their intensity and were reinforced by the slogan of truth and non-violence, which he paraded ostentatiously before the country. No sensible or enlightened person could object to those slogans. In fact there is nothing new or original in them. They are implicit in every constitutional public movement. But it is nothing but a mere dream if you imagine that the bulk of mankind is, or can ever become, capable of scrupulous adherence to these lofty principles in its normal life from day to day. In fact, honour, duty and love of one’s own kith and kin and country might often compel us to disregard non-violence and to use force. I could never conceive that an armed resistance to an aggression is unjust. I would consider it a religious and moral duty to resist and, if possible, to overpower such an enemy by use of force. [In the Ramayana] Rama killed Ravana in a tumultuous fight and relieved Sita. [In the Mahabharata], Krishna killed Kansa to end his wickedness; and Arjuna had to fight and slay quite a number of his friends and relations including the revered Bhishma because the latter was on the side of the aggressor. It is my firm belief that in dubbing Rama, Krishna and Arjuna as guilty of violence, the Mahatma betrayed a total ignorance of the springs of human action.

In more recent history, it was the heroic fight put up by Chhatrapati Shivaji that first checked and eventually destroyed the Muslim tyranny in India. It was absolutely essentially for Shivaji to overpower and kill an aggressive Afzal Khan, failing which he would have lost his own life. In condemning history’s towering warriors like Shivaji, Rana Pratap and Guru Gobind Singh as misguided patriots, Gandhiji has merely exposed his self-conceit. He was, paradoxical, as it may appear, a violent pacifist who brought untold calamities on the country in the name of truth and non-violence, while Rana Pratap, Shivaji and the Guru will remain enshrined in the hearts of their countrymen forever for the freedom they brought to them.

The accumulating provocation of thirty-two years, culminating in his last pro-Muslim fast, at last goaded me to the conclusion that the existence of Gandhi should be brought to an end immediately. Gandhi had done very well in South Africa to uphold the rights and well being of the Indian community there. But when he finally returned to India he developed a subjective mentality under which he alone was to be the final judge of what was right or wrong. If the country wanted his leadership, it had to accept his infallibility; if it did not, he would stand aloof from the Congress and carry on his own way. Against such an attitude there can be no halfway house. Either Congress had to surrender its will to his and had to be content with playing second fiddle to all his eccentricity, whimsicality, metaphysics and primitive vision, or it had to carry on without him. He alone was the Judge of everyone and everything; he was the master brain guiding the civil disobedience movement; no other could know the technique of that movement. He alone knew when to begin and when to withdraw it. The movement might succeed or fail, it might bring untold disaster and political reverses but that could make no difference to the Mahatma’s infallibility. ‘A Satyagrahi can never fail’ was his formula for declaring his own infallibility and nobody except himself knew what a Satyagrahi is.

Thus, the Mahatma became the judge and jury in his own cause. These childish insanities and obstinacies, coupled with a most severe austerity of life, ceaseless work and lofty character made Gandhi formidable and irresistible. Many people thought that his politics were irrational but they had either to withdraw from the Congress or place their intelligence at his feet to do with, as he liked. In a position of such absolute irresponsibility Gandhi was guilty of blunder after blunder, failure after failure, disaster after disaster.

Gandhi’s pro-Muslim policy is blatantly in his perverse attitude on the question of the national language of India. It is quite obvious that Hindi has the most prior claim to be accepted as the premier language. In the beginning of his career in India, Gandhi gave a great impetus to Hindi but as he found that the Muslims did not like it, he became a champion of what is called Hindustani. Everybody in India knows that there is no language called Hindustani; it has no grammar; it has no vocabulary. It is a mere dialect; it is spoken, but not written. It is a bastard tongue and crossbreed between Hindi and Urdu, and not even the Mahatma’s sophistry could make it popular. But in his desire to please the Muslims he insisted that Hindustani alone should be the national language of India. His blind followers, of course, supported him and the so-called hybrid language began to be used. The charm and purity of the Hindi language was to be prostituted to please the Muslims. All his experiments were at the expense of the Hindus.

From August 1946 onwards the private armies of the Muslim League began a massacre of the Hindus. The then Viceroy, Lord Wavell, though distressed at what was happening, would not use his powers under the Government of India Act of 1935 to prevent the rape, murder and arson. The Hindu blood began to flow from Bengal to Karachi with some retaliation by the Hindus. The Interim Government formed in September was sabotaged by its Muslim League members right from its inception, but the more they became disloyal and treasonable to the government of which they were a part, the greater was Gandhi’s infatuation for them. Lord Wavell had to resign as he could not bring about a settlement and he was succeeded by Lord Mountbatten. King Log was followed by King Stork.

The Congress, which had boasted of its nationalism and socialism, secretly accepted Pakistan literally at the point of the bayonet and abjectly surrendered to Jinnah. India was vivisected and one-third of the Indian territory became foreign land to us from August 15, 1947. Lord Mountbatten came to be described in Congress circles as the greatest Viceroy and Governor-General this country ever had. The official date for handing over power was fixed for June 30, 1948, but Mountbatten with his ruthless surgery gave us a gift of vivisected India ten months in advance. This is what Gandhi had achieved after thirty years of undisputed dictatorship and this is what Congress party calls ‘freedom’ and ‘peaceful transfer of power’. The Hindu-Muslim unity bubble was finally burst and a theocratic state was established with the consent of Nehru and his crowd and they have called ‘freedom won by them with sacrifice’ – whose sacrifice? When top leaders of Congress, with the consent of Gandhi, divided and tore the country – which we consider a deity of worship – my mind was filled with direful anger.

One of the conditions imposed by Gandhi for his breaking of the fast unto death related to the mosques in Delhi occupied by the Hindu refugees. But when Hindus in Pakistan were subjected to violent attacks he did not so much as utter a single word to protest and censure the Pakistan Government or the Muslims concerned. Gandhi was shrewd enough to know that while undertaking a fast unto death, had he imposed for its break some condition on the Muslims in Pakistan, there would have been found hardly any Muslims who could have shown some grief if the fast had ended in his death. It was for this reason that he purposely avoided imposing any condition on the Muslims. He was fully aware of from the experience that Jinnah was not at all perturbed or influenced by his fast and the Muslim League hardly attached any value to the inner voice of Gandhi.

Gandhi is being referred to as the Father of the Nation. But if that is so, he had failed his paternal duty inasmuch as he has acted very treacherously to the nation by his consenting to the partitioning of it. I stoutly maintain that Gandhi has failed in his duty. He has proved to be the Father of Pakistan. His inner-voice, his spiritual power and his doctrine of non-violence of which so much is made of, all crumbled before Jinnah’s iron will and proved to be powerless.

Briefly speaking, I thought to myself and foresaw I shall be totally ruined, and the only thing I could expect from the people would be nothing but hatred and that I shall have lost all my honour, even more valuable than my life, if I were to kill Gandhiji. But at the same time I felt that the Indian politics in the absence of Gandhiji would surely be proved practical, able to retaliate, and would be powerful with armed forces. No doubt, my own future would be totally ruined, but the nation would be saved from the inroads of Pakistan. People may even call me and dub me as devoid of any sense or foolish, but the nation would be free to follow the course founded on the reason which I consider to be necessary for sound nation-building. After having fully considered the question, I took the final decision in the matter, but I did not speak about it to anyone whatsoever. I took courage in both my hands and I did fire the shots at Gandhiji on 30th January 1948, on the prayer-grounds of Birla House.

I do say that my shots were fired at the person whose policy and action had brought rack and ruin and destruction to millions of Hindus. There was no legal machinery by which such an offender could be brought to book and for this reason I fired those fatal shots.

I bear no ill will towards anyone individually but I do say that I had no respect for the present government owing to their policy, which was unfairly favourable towards the Muslims. But at the same time I could clearly see that the policy was entirely due to the presence of Gandhi. I have to say with great regret that Prime Minister Nehru quite forgets that his preachings and deeds are at times at variances with each other when he talks about India as a secular state in season and out of season, because it is significant to note that Nehru has played a leading role in the establishment of the theocratic state of Pakistan, and his job was made easier by Gandhi’s persistent policy of appeasement towards the Muslims.

I now stand before the court to accept the full share of my responsibility for what I have done and the judge would, of course, pass against me such orders of sentence as may be considered proper. But I would like to add that I do not desire any mercy to be shown to me, nor do I wish that anyone else should beg for mercy on my behalf. My confidence about the moral side of my action has not been shaken even by the criticism levelled against it on all sides. I have no doubt that honest writers of history will weigh my act and find the true value thereof some day in future.

-NATHURAM GODSE

Tested and Certified

2009-09-30T08:58:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to me...this is my 200th post.

I write the blog with the sadness that India could not make it to semis of the champions trophy and the happiness of topping the qualifiers. I am really happy that I did, with His grace, what I wanted to. I proved myself yet another time. I think, this is only a beginning. I will, probably, need to prove my worth more and more number of times in the times to come. But I feel good after the qualifiers. I made a 86% (I guess 100% in Quantum, 85% in Mechanics and ~75% in Electrodynamics). Noting that the all time highest is 92%, I guess, I am looking pretty good. Thanks to all your prayers and efforts in encouraging, inspiring me. A simple thanks to Pooja and my Mom will not be sufficient. She stayed by my side, gave me the confidence and food of course. A special thanks to Rijosh, Kiran and Shilpa for their support. And with Big boss's support was the most essential, which I did get! Sachin and Chiranjeevi for their inspiration....

I realized one thing. Every one has talent. But they have to prove it under pressure. The most important thing is to go out and deliver and show yourself. What if Sachin can play well but not score centuries to show the world his worth? What if chiranjeevi never made movies like Rudraveena, Swyamkrushi, and Aapadbhandavudu?
So the most important thing is to show to the world and display it well. I am happy that I did it when it mattered.

I questioned myself many times, if I could pass. Until the last moment I never expected anything. Not even when one of friends learned from my advisor that I topped the exam. Only when I was congratulated, did I feel happy. I was a shy and timid Indian kid who was asked to start with undergraduate coursework in order to be able to clear the qualifiers and when my advisor asked me to take 400 level course, I was quite. I made the grades speak. And yesterday when he said, 'We are proud of you' I raised my head for the first time. Yup, that was the moment for me. I put in effort and prayers and today I am here. For two seconds I felt, I was a kid studying in telugu medium who grew up from a small gurukul and went to chota sa college, made it to IIT with out coaching and now topped a Phd qual exam, with Caltech grads on the board!!

Well, I am happy I made it to this stage. I have a lot more to learn and a lot more to achieve. I have miles to go before sleep.

Pray for me brother....

2009-09-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

Pray for me friends...

On the verge of qualifiers...I never studied this long for any exam in my life and yet I am not confident enough. Something feels missing!! I hope I worked hard enough.. July, August and September..the toil was heavy. But all the net practise, gymming and training wouldn't matter, only the runs scored do!!

God, I dedicate all my efforts to you in silence. I am wherever I am, only and only because of you. Please be my side and lead my way!

India Rising (say what?)

2009-09-16T16:17:00.000-07:00